salam

in dafe mikham yekam az havashi benvisam...

chan vaqt pish inja entekhabate shoraye senfi bud...bachehaye in uniam ke khoda nasib nakone az sib zaminiam badtaran o ba in hame zolmi ke dar haqeshun mishe engar na engar...bazia hatta nemidunestan ke shoraye senfi chie...unayiam ke midunastan ye edei migoftan che fayede be dardemun ke nemikhore...hala dige khodetun dar nazar begirin ke cheqad un daste afrade agah talash kardan o harf zadan ta tedad afrade ray dahande be hade nesab resid bade 3 sal belakhare usb ham shoraye senfi dar shod...!!!

tasavor konin ke saataye akhare raygiri bazi az afrad ba bolandgu tu uni dad mizadan o az bache ha mikhastan ke beran o ray bedan...

 diruz yeki az kale gonde haye unio gir avordam o vaqti az vaze khabgahaye dokhtara goftam behem gof ke daneshjuhaye shabane tebqe nazare vezarat kuft ham hesab nemishan...

jalebe na?
migof ke vezarat khaste unayi ke estetaate mali daran ama estetaate darsi nadaran betunan bian daneshgah ta betiqimeshun o ye madrakiam bechepunim zire baqaleshun...ama khob migof ke hala bar ax shode...yani mahaye bad bakht ham pul midim ,ham adam hesab nemishim,ham menat saremune,ham bemun migan SHABENE,mese khar bekhunim...akhe asatide inja alaqeye khasi be andakhtane daneshjuhaye shabane daran...

az tarafiam dokhtar inja adam hesab nemishe...har no tabizi ke fek konin qael mishan...az qaza gerefte ta dars...az jaye khab gerefte ta hamum...

va az hame badtar qeyre bumi budan ke dige rasman bayad berim bemirirm...inja daneshjuhaye bumi ru chesh ja daran..az gol kamtar beshun nemigan ama qeyre bumia...har no giri ke bekhayn midan...

age dokhtar bashi dige badtar...chon dige bi panahi!!!!

qashang bud na?!in az vaze uni!!!

va ama shahre dus dashtanue zhn!!!!

bokosh bokosha dobare shoru shode...dokhtaraye dozdide shode...badanaye dokhtare tike tike shode...tajavozaye ziad va ....

har ruz behtar az diruz...ding ding!!

farhange pain inja bidad mikone...harze hesabkardane dokhtaraye daneshjuye qeyre bumi...haqkhori...adamkoshi...

diruz ye sago ru poshte bum didam ke kalasho avorde bord az poshte bum invartar!! o dash pars mikard...

hafte pish 2 ta baluch az kanaram be sorat rad shodan...donbale yeki dige budan..daste yekishun ye khanjare kheyli bozorg bud o daste un yeki ye chi dige esmesho nemidunam( faqat yadam ke tu cartone lakposhtaye ninja yekishun az ina dash)...uniam ke dashtan donbalehs midavidano peyda kardan...be nazaretun chi hamrash bud?!...na natarsin ye chaquye khuni FAQAT!!! hamrash bud...didin tars nadash...

dige hosele nadaram az havashi begam baratun...

felan !!!!

bala payin...bala payin...

mese kuh bayad vasti...nemidunama ama sakhte engar...

tu giji donbale ye poshte mohkamam...beyne adama kam peyda mishe...age ham beshe mohkame man nis

akhe age begam mohkame, khodas, ke mishe ruz az no ruzi az no...dobare miram soraqe hamun rah o hamun barname ha...hamuna ke sakhtiasho natunestam tahamol konam...hamuna ke mano mese tupe basketball zad zamin na tupe basketball na...akhe un baz barmigarde be samte bala

mese hamun tokhmorqe...hamuna ke inja 1 hafte darmiun vase ye hafte sobune 4ta bet midan...!!!!

begzarim.

baz sardar gomi...in tu un...mitarsam,mitarsam beram tush o baz natunam..

midunam tush che khabare...midunam bayad chika konam...ama mitarsam

vali rastesham az in vaz khastam...migam delo bezanam be darya o beram tu....dafe qabl ye mardo dashtam mese kuh ke mano nigah dasht...ama un ke vase ma na nun shod o na ab...ta adam tanha shoru nakone o tanha edame nade adam nemishe...

tanhaye tanhaye tanha...sakhte sakhte sakht

esmesho bezaram shoru??!

bashe man alan shoru kardam o sakht!!!

vastadam jelo amvaj...khoda ham ke msihnasin dige...unam shoru karde...mibare vasam...

mese qayeqi ke mikhad khalafe jahate amvaj bere...

ama khob entekhab kardam...iman daram be raham,be poshtavanam...pas miram jelo!mese ye mard!!!

tasmim garche qalat bashe ama az sar dar gomi behtare!!!

ok...pas hamun tupe basketball.

nemidunam dige ba chia movajeh misham.faqat midunam ke bayad beistam.

be qole ye bande khodayi aqidei ke besh amal nashe mishe kashk...

mibinam suratamo tu ayene

ba labi khaste miporsam az khodam

in qaribe kie az man chi mikhad?

un be man ya man be un khire shodam?

bavaram nemishe har chi mibinam

 cheshamo ye lahze ru ham mizaram

be khodam migam ke in suratake

mitunam az suratam baresh daram

mikesham dastamo ruye suratam

har chi bayad bedunam dastam mige

mano tu ayene neshun mide

mige in tuyi na hichkase dige

jaye pahaye tamume qese ha

range qorbat tu tamume lahzeha

munde ruye suratet ta beduni

hala emruz chi azat munde beja

...

ayne mige to hamuni ke ye ruz

mikhasti khorshido ba das begiri

vali emruz shahre shab khunat shode

dari bi seda tu qalbet mimiri

mishkanam ayenaro ta dobare

nakhad az gozashte ha harf bezane

ayne mishakne hezar tikke mishe

ama baz tu har tikash axe mane

axa ba dahan kaji behem migan

cheshem omido bebor az asemun

ruza baham dige farqi nadaran

buye kohnegi midan tamumeshun.....

aqaz kardan garche hamishe hayejane khase khodesh ro dare amma edame dadan ba ahdafe avalie va be samar resundan dar eyne hayejan o zibai,sakhti haye besyar dare ke gahi ensan ro ajez mikone.

va aqazi digar ba yade khoda ... nazdike be yek sal o nim az payan yaftane kare webloge qablim migzare,webloge khalvatiam bud!!

dustan barha o barha porisan ke chera karo natamumraha kardam,pasokhe man be anha chizi joz natamumi khodam nabud va in bar ham natamum umadam.na balatar na paintar va fahmidam ke natamumi mane az boruz nis.

nemidunam ke daqiqan chi mikham begam , az goftan harfaye tekrari khaste shodam,hoseleye davat be rahio nadaram ke khodam besyar besyar azash duram.

hatta hoseleye goftane khaterate sard o talkhe zendegimo teye in moddat nadaram.

na mikham az shoru begam o na enteha chon rahio nemibinam.man kheyli duram o chesham tar mibine...

nemikham az na omidi o bi ruhi va tanhayi begam ke khodam ro mahha khordo khord ... va hala man mundam ba jesmi khali az sarshartarin omidha va iman ... man va gomgashtegi ...

na in aqaz vasam hayejan angize , na ...

goftam ke nemidunam chi mikham ...nemikham ke chizi bekham,khaste haye man durtar az uni hastan ke lams beshan! nemidunam shayad ham bekham ke bekham ...

khodamo shabihe ye kasi mibinam ke taze az khab bidar shode o akharin sahanati ke tuye khab dide,kabus haye bish az had malmus bude...unqadr malmus ke khali shode...

nemidunam sarmanshae talasham vase bidari omide ya na ?behem nagin,mikham khodam behfahmam.

yade un shere ebi oftadam:

man!khali az atefe o khashm,khali az khishio qorvat,gijo nabhur beyne budan o nabudan,eshq akharin hamsafare man,mese to mano raha kard,hala dastam munde o tanhayi man...

naporsin azam ke chera ina ro migam,age fahmmidam ke chi shode,age fahmidam ke chi mikham be shoma ham migam.

alan ye tashbihe behtar vase khodam peyda kardam:tokhme morqi ke modtha (ke shayad ham ziad nabude) az hozuresh gozasthte,zarde o sefide dare o shayad rage haye khuni ke neshuneye ijade ye janin bashe, ye zendegi!va hala khorde be ye divar,shekaste,fek konam khord shode,na behtare begam leh shode!

shode,kardan,khodesh karde...che midunam mohem ine ke alan leham!!!

be man migan ke ziad khoshbinam:)hoshbinane miram jelo:chan mahe akhir mordam!

yek mahe akhir zende shodam!

hafte pish o hafte jariam namidam "hafte haye manaviat"...

va be in fazaye tohi majazi migam felesh!!!

vaqti khodamo mitekundam ye chizai un tah oftad pain nemidunam, nemidunam va behem nagin chie!shayad hes bashe.

khoshbinane tar begam?shayad hese omid bashe

khoshbinane tar?!iman

bazam bishtar???!!eshq...

:)),daram khodamo khar mikonam!age eshq bud ke alan man be tikehaye vjudam ru zmain niga nemikardam o dar be dar donbale eynakam nemigashtam ta bebinam jelo che rangie?!!

hala...har chi ke has...michasbam besh ..andaze kafi kam hastam,haminam qanimate...

tahe hameye harfam begam,garche gijam.garche leh shodam amma ye bavar daram:

"khoda has."

in bavar age bishtar az inam nemiram bazam has.lazem bud begam ta fek nakonin faqat mane khali hastam o ye hese qarib!
na!

mane qafel o gij,khodaye bidar o hoshyar va ye hesse marmuz!